Fall Quarter 2012

This quarter was pretty intense. I think I was too caught up with unnecessary things than with the necessary. In the beginning of the quarter, I was so strong with everything. I understood most of my classes and even when I didn’t, I wasn’t afraid to ask for help from my professors or peers. In addition to that, I gotten tutoring for the classes I knew I was going to struggle in. To be honest, I think I got really cocky because I was so confident in my classes since I knew I’ll passed them in a breeze. Well, that didn’t work out as I hoped. I mean I passed all my classes, but not with the grades I wanted. After the first round of midterms, I was so disappointed in myself because I knew I could have done better. It also wasn’t my breaking point, so I keep myself busy with non-school related things. I was still confident that I’ll do well on my second round of midterms (most of my classes this quarter was based on exams). My second round of midterms came along, and this time I studied twice as hard as I did for my first round. I was so determined to prove to my professors that I understood what was going on in class. And you know what? I failed once again. Why? Simple mistakes… Yep, simple mistakes killed me so much. How simple? As simple as misunderstanding a question; as simple as not studying enough for a certain class; as simple as not attending to review lectures to study for another class. Yeah, those simple mistakes killed me on the second round of midterms. I was really upset at myself that I cried to myself whenever I am alone. Yeah, I was that upset with myself because I was so determine, focus, and confident that I’ll do so much better this time around. Even with depressing grades, I wasn't going to give up that easily (well for one class, I did and I regret it a lot). During Thanksgiving weekend, I began study grinding for all my finals. At the same time, it was difficult for me to divide my study time with my classes because I wasn't used to it. Even though I had a difficult time, I managed in the end. Not only that, I was also studying for my chemistry midterm and my biology practical, and dealing with chemistry lab. Even with all that, I managed to focus my attention and time with my studies until the end of finals week. At the beginning of finals, I had the most difficult time sleeping because I was worried so much about it. Why? Two reason: 1. My final will make or break my grade. 2. I would feel like I failed so much this quarter. It got to the point when I got up from bed and drove to school just to do some last minute cramming before my first final. After taking my first final, I immediately went on to study for my next final, which I crashed on for 30 minutes. Even with two finals down, I continued to study for my last two finals. I felt confident for my biology final; for my econ final, it was a lost cause, which is why I regret because it was an easy final, but I just didn’t want to study anymore for it since the professor didn’t care. In the end, I’m pretty satisfied with my grades: -BIO 122: B- -BIO 122L: B+ -CHM 122: B -CHM 122L: C+ -MAT 116: C -EC 202: D I mean these grades aren't great, but I’ll make it up next quarter. I know I will because these grades are just a motivation for me to do better.